Thanks so much for your thoughtful comments and support, Sissy, daydreamer, Adamsdarling, lijebeck, patina and CameraChic. I appreciate it.
I really hate to come on here and complain, but it is my main place to vent. Rest assured I'm not trolling for sympathy, but I do indeed appreciate your kind words. I just can't bend the ears of friends or family as much as I need to, so I come here. I try not to, but this is my venting site, so, dear readers, you bear the brunt of that.
With Hubs, I feel responsible for his health. It's like, I feel by the sheer force of my will, I can keep him alive. Every time he made a mistake, I felt like I should have foreseen them and stopped them. He had a huge mistake in doing his home dialysis that caused a major infection and resulted in him having to switch back from peritoneal dialysis back to hemodialysis for several months. That was a major bummer, and I felt so responsible for it. Every time he forgets his meds, I feel like I should have reminded him. Each night (he takes his final meds of the day at 8 p.m.), I obsessively check his pill container to make sure it's empty. Once in a great while, I find his pills and take them up for him to take a couple of hours late. A couple of times a year, he forgets totally, and I have forgotten to double-check him and then I kick myself for falling down on the job. I always feel like I'm his backstop and I hate when I fail.
Sissy, I can't even imagine 34 cats. That's horrible. There are about six in our immediate area, and they all come in our yard because the neighbors on either side of us have dogs. I guess we'll have to get a dog to keep the cats at bay.
DD, I'm glad to hear you and your family are so healthy. I hope it continues for many, many years.
AD, the drugs cause skin cancer all on their own. At his surgery he had last year, he was in a room with four or five other patients all of whom had skin cancer on their noses or ears. Hubs was the only one in the room with skin cancer on his belly, a place that never sees the light of day. He has had it other places as well, but it's because of the drugs.
patina, that was my thought exactly: What kind of side effects will new drugs bring? I just don't want to go through anything like that anymore. I dunno.
CC, thanks. I was thinking about you and your mom today. I know it's a tough one for you.
lijebeck, you're exactly right: All any of us can do is keep plugging along. And the person who is the picture of health can go tomorrow. However, it would be nice not to be thinking about it all the time.
So there it is. Dang, I have to quit with these long posts!
Weather has been absolutely gorgeous beyond all my wildest dreams the last few days, and it's supposed to be nice for the rest of the week. So yay for sunshine and it's time to get my yard work on. It looks like the danger of frost is finally over and it's time to plant some flowers, bay-bee!